Worked in office all day, trying to get PCA schedule done thru the end of the year & other odds and ends. I still need to get FMLA paper work turned in. I procrastinate things I do not like or want to do. Like organizing the mail, organizing all this cancer information and doctor appt.s and sending in FMLA paperwork for something I really don't want to do.
I was doing some of my mandatory education today and looked thru all the diagnoses of those needing hazardous drugs, cancer only being one. How ignorant I have been of all the different & difficult diagnoses people have to deal with. I have been lucky with health and grateful for it. I feel silly for whining away in this blog.
Tomorrow I work on the floor as a nurse & can enjoy the miracle of birth. It looks to be a busy day, so that will keep my mind off things. I have agreed to babysit Sara's kids tomorrow night. NO time for self pity tomorrow.
I received more gifts, hugs and well wishes. I received a beautiful huge planter from the managers in Women Services. It looks perfect in my home. I am so loved, it is always amazing to me and gives me strength.
Looks like on Monday I have to go to imaging first before surgery to have radioactive dye shot into the tumor for them to locate the sentinel node. Wow, it just keeps getting funner. I think I am scheduled for an 1130 start time for surgery, but will find out for sure tomorrow between 2 and 4. I have been told I will be in surgery between 4 to 5 hours.
I kept thinking all day, that this time next week I will finally know which path I am to journey. I feel strong, it's just the unknown, once again that I don't like. This is hard for anyone, but for me I think I like control and have never been good with surprises, good or bad.
I will deal with whatever I am given, I always have & do a good job.
Your posts alway bring me to tears... Ina good way! I love your attitude towards this whole thing. In a week from now it will just be a bump in the road, that's all, just a bump. Life will go on as normal in no time!
ReplyDeleteI love you mama!
I'm here for you Vikki! I love you and love reading your posts. Our years of friendship mean so much to me and I plan on years more for both of us. I'll be there Monday.... Waiting, praying, and loving you with the rest. Hugs my friend, HUGS! KS, always!
ReplyDeleteTeresa :-)